On the wheel…

New marble tables for the restaurant hehe but the chairs are still red. A bit mismatching. Need to get used to it. A lot of people refer to our place as the restaurant with red chairs.  Hence they decided to still use the red chairs. Might change in the future hehe

I just told my mom about wanting to eat buko pie. And she got someone to bring them from the Philippines for me. They are a kind of dessert, coconut pie. Hehe

Bello clun sandwich. Really glad that Julia got me this lunch. Quite good with salad. And there is avocado in the sandwich i never know how to eat avocado itself or as a drink. But i can tolerate them in sushi. But in this sandwich, it just felt a lot healthier.

There were somee positive results in the lab last week but today,  it did not go that well. Hope after cny, i can have more breakthrough!

Positivism should help,
The one who is trying to be positive └(^o^)┘

It was an awkward meal,
The one who prefers enjoyable times with comfort company: -)

First family gathering of 2012 at Radisson Hotel

we went for a brunch there. It was a good gathering except for the non Olympic size pool hahaha.

It was also for GiGi’s advance birthday: -)

Good times,
The one who enjoys quality time.

and disappointed.

I feel like I am being back in Year 2 of Monash. I hold on to a friend for I think it is worth the friendship. BUt after only 7 months, having to struggle with the illness too then, I realised I should learn to let go. IF one party does not cherish the friendship, it is already pointless to hold on so tightly.

Probably just like the sand analogy (that I quite love actually), the tighter you try to grasp the sand, the less retains. So probably I should just let go. Yong once showed me a flow chart about being happy or not. If not, how can I change it? If I don’t change, then most probably I will still be unhappy.

It took me sometime and a lot of courage to let go of that friend, and finally to smile and laugh sincerely again. I must also thank the group of people who helped me pull through, especially Wen Hao, Mun Keat, Chee Sian and Von Yi. Things got better and I felt better albeit the awkwardness at times. But I dare say I hold no grudges and I can still sincerely be friends with those others if they initiate it. I tried hard enough last time and I am not going to approach people who did not value me much.

This time, it is more of someone being such a pea-brain. I wonder if he will ever think through it and see a clear picture of what had happened. I am so tired already from work and research. Yet to have someone totally ignorant of these facts, and still wanting to add more dramas in between, I totally cannot accept it. I should learn from the lesson and let go NOW.

I can still be friend with someone who betrayed me when I was just in secondary school. I am sure I can be friends “again” with my ex-uni mates. So I am sure I can be friend with “you” again, if you chose to see the bigger picture and reflect properly what has happened. After so many times, this time, I am so worn out that I won’t be taking the initiative anymore. The “E” cannot jump through and say “GO”. My ego stays put, and it all depends on whether your “E” want to make that jump to “GO” or not.

I am really disappointed,

The one who always prefer a simpler life.