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对自己的承诺…… 为何办不到?

不要犯贱…… 不理睬就是一定要不理睬!

They say: It is better to break your own heart by leaving than to stay and let someone break your heart every day. Or something along those lines. Picture reposted and don’t know where I read that paraphrased quote before :S

The one who should smell some coffee and wake up.


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Of being happy yet sad

I think I miss him more than I would like to admit. It’s even harder when you come home to a surprise postcard from him. It is all the more harder when he says he hope to see me soon and I possibly know we will never meet again.

Well, honestly, I did show him my stash of postcards but I never would have expected him to write me one. Heck, I don’t even know how he got my address?

I was surprised and happy.. He is just so sweet. Maybe it’s his way to make me miss him continuously! As if the grasshead in my office is not enough of a reminder? I think when the grasshead die.. That will be the time I let go of everything.. Maybe..

The one who should really not let ego overrides everything.

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Of my ugly mind

I am not ashamed to say I have lots of evil thoughts. I feel ashamed when people say I am nice and it gives me great pressure to live up to the word “nice”. Maybe you will think that I am being too hard on myself. Oh well.. I guess I have to live with my own monster, not you. 

I always try to think the best of people but there are times (sometimes too many times), that I felt some negativity about some other people. I never give myself the chance to put a full stop there. I still let myself interact more with the person (certainly not going out of the way to do that. Will just do so if situations allow). 

Today I cried again. It is really my hormones!! I cry too easily 😦 there is this girl whom I thought harbour a time-bomb. Definition of time-bomb must have been discussed somewhere in a previous blog post of something. Anyway, I used to be like that so I can see it in her. Today I told her about it and found out the true reasons (well, at least this meant that what I felt was real). And her stories (or rather memories) brought her to tears and subsequently, me to tears. Just because I cannot stand seeing people tear up. 

We shall never judge one’s journey.. No matter how easy or how hard it is for others because we are never (and can never) truly walking in their shoes. Reminding of myself few quotes on being kind. I don’t know the exact authors at the moment, Google will help but I am not going it now. Haha

– You always have a choice. Always choose to be kind. I think this is attributed to Dalai Lama. Don’t quote what I typed here. Haha

– Always be kind as you never know the war one is fighting. Maybe by Ralph Emerson? Again, don’t quote me.

The one who tries to be more emphatic and kind when possible.

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Of lovely pigeon 

Haha Agata’s last name means pigeon! Now if I see a pigeon, I’d probably think of her. That’s probably whenever I see a bird that resembles pigeon (or the pigeon in my head ha).

Agata is very lovely! I love talking to her. Sincere and heartwarming. On Saturday we had a little talk and one of her stories brought me to tears. She told me how in love her aunt was (is?) with the then fiancé and just because of the words of the ex-fiancé’s mom, she broke off the engagement and stayed single till now. I felt the love so strong that it brought me to tears. It sounds simple enough, I am sure it’s Agata and my hormones! 

Agata and Ben might not look like the perfect couple. Well, at first sight anyway. But I swear they are so great together. It is not even right to say Ben is so lucky to have Agata or vice versa.. They are just lucky to have one another. Ben will definitely be the best for Agata and their children (if they do stay together :D).

Agata’s view of marriage and family is so similar to what I want. It makes me feel like Ben is the perfect man (not for me, but for Agata). I am not sure I will find a Ben for myself but I do look forward to one. It warms my heart just to know Ben gives her a lot of great cuddles, even during sleep! How Ben can give her that “reassurance” in soft head pats, automatic back hug or cuddles, looking for her hand and hold it while sleeping/whenever he wakes up… It is so sweet. They are really perfect for one another. 

The one looking forward to attending A&B’s wedding.

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